General questions for former Messianics

[karebear]

I am new here and am pretty sure that I've already been asked to leave, but I'm open minded to learn and so have continued reading posts.
I am very sorry that so many have had such bad experiences with HR. I am involved in a HR ministry that is not extreme as is being described.
I think that what i have been led to is balanced and does not take on legalism of any kind. Observing sabbath and feast days are a personal choice. I personally believe in a saturday sabbath after God dealt with me on that subject and then made it possible for me to keep it when at first it seemed impossible (because of my career), but as far as the feast days I understand them to be educational and prophetic and I can just learn about them or I can participate if I want to. It is not something that I am being told to do. I understand that anything we do has to be from a willing heart and a desire to love The Lord or it is a waste of time, cause it will not please God. I will not/cannot do something just because I am told to do it, It has to be because i believe God wants me to do it and because i want to give that from my heart.
Hearing stories of animal sacrifice is just plain scary and if i ever saw such a thing i would instantly know that i was in the wrong church! Nothing about the HR teaching i have recieved is weird or creepy or gives a feeling of bondage.
I love to share my newfound knowlege with my friends but i dont tell them they have to do it. I was and am a beleiver and i know God loved me a blessed me all my life before HR and he will keep me.
We always with any teaching have to discern what is true and throw out the rest, cause there is no earthly teacher who has it all correct, and we should not look to men because they always will fail.